Did you feel worse around what would have been your due date?

[loveulotslikejellytots]

Had a mc in March. I felt I dealt with it pretty well, especially since there were 6 people in my office all pregnant. The last one has just left for mat leave, she is due the same day I would have been and it's hit me like a truck.

For some reason I thought I'd be ok, but I feel like shit. I don't want to do anything. I want to curl up in a ball and cry and sleep for the next few weeks until September is over. But I can't, I have a beautiful little girl that needs me, a new job which I'm actually grateful for because it takes my mind off of things.

DH understands to a degree, but he's trying to convince me to go to a party Saturday night it'll do me some good apparently. I just don't seem to be able to make him understand what it feels like. I don't want to see anyone, I don't want to go and pretend to laugh and have a drink. I know I won't feel like this forever but right now I just want to be miserable. Is that too much to ask?

I feel your pain OP. I had a MC in March too, baby was due in October and every time i think about how the due date is coming up I get a bit panicky, I don't think I'm going to cope with it very well.

My DH is amazing, but I have found the whole experience to be very lonely. He just doesn't seem to get it and thinks I need to stop dwelling on it. I can't face my friend who is due at the same time as i would have been.

I don't have any advice, I just wanted to say you aren't alone and I feel the same.

Yep
Felt miserable for a very long time each mc
But....nearly wrecked a strong marriage and I had 2 older children to be aware of so made myself do parties etc and kinda practised being normal

I think lonely is the right word @Flatasapancakenow like I said, DH has been great and has admitted that he doesn't understand because it's very different for him. But I don't want cheering up. I just want to wallow for a bit.

I do make myself join in and get on with things I have to do @kktpj like work or when dd is around. But it's getting harder to force myself to do things I'd really rather not right now.

I wasn't right after my first MC but tottered along OKish. Then I suddenly felt like I'd been poleaxed emotionally. Crying a lot, struggling to concentrate etc. Then I realised that it was my due date coming up. I took the time to right down properly what had happened and bought a memory ring. It seemed to help, remembering and acknowledging my loss and I began to feel a lot better.
I'm sorry you have to go through this and wish you the strength, support and love you need to help you through.