Family holiday with pregnant SIL after miscarriage

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I had an early miscarriage last week but next week there is a planned family holiday with my OH family for a week. All living in one house for a week. His mum, grandad, 36 weeks pregnant sister, neice and sisters boyfriend. They are lovely but they argue quite a bit, just quite a volatile family when stressed.
My OH has also said that he doesnt want to go if i dont go. So i dont know what to do. I dont feel like going. I have a billion and one things to do so a week on my own would be nice but i dont want to leave him on his own or have him not go because of me. I just dont know if that is okay for him to say that to me or not. Or if i am even in my right to say that i am not coming because his sister is really pregnant or his family arent the greatest environment.

I just have no clue what to do.
any suggestions?

I'm so sorry for your loss and that you find yourself here. It's a hard one that only really you can answer. What do you really want to do? You need to do what's right for you. Some people might go on the holiday to try help them deal with has happened, others will want to give it a miss and stay home. I can imagine it will be hard if your SIL is pregnant. Does your OH actually really want to go or is he looking for a reason not to?

I just hope you have the support you need at this difficult time.

Thank you. Not really. Even without this we would have spent most of the time with just me and my OH. My OH has also already said he wants to try again, even though the first one wasnt planned but was so wanted. I just feel like i should be back to normal and have to deal with it.

I dont think he wants to spend extended periods of time just with his family. Like i said they are a family which easily escalates to shouting which he doesnt like. But i definitely wont be able to deal with that. Also i will be driven down by my OH so i wouldnt be able to leave if i wanted to. I just feel like i would feel trapped and if i feel like crap there is literally nothing i can do to get away from it all.

I talked to my OH about having a name for the baby just for us to know just to have a memory for them just like for us to have something, so that it was real to us. but he doesnt think thats a good idea. Just feels like we have reacted completely differently to this.

Hi!

Personally I wouldn't go. I had a MC back in March and although I'm doing ok mentally I can still really struggle to see pregnant people and newborns.

We did name the baby, but my husband initially thought it was a silly idea. I like that they have a name. I explained to my husband that we couldn't keep calling the baby we lost "the baby" because other people will (and maybe one day we will) have another baby and they will then be called "the baby", so it felt to me like our little one would have no identity and would never have existed, if that makes sense? DH got on board then when I explained it to him.

My knee-jerk reaction was to want to TTC immediately again, but my husband didn't want to. He wanted time to process it. At the time, and still sometimes now, I really resented that. I felt like he was denying me something that could have helped me heal and making it more difficult for me to be happy. I wonder if I'd be more over it if I was pregnant now.

Funnily enough, last week he decided he was ready now and we could TTC if I wanted, and I'm not sure. I don't know if I could go through it all again.