Mixed feelings during a MMMC

[bobbyoo11]

Hi all,

I recently had a silent miscarriage over a week ago now. I started off the 4 oral tablets last Saturday. All seemed to be going well until 4am this morning woke up with the worst cramps, worse than labour and currently losing liver looking black things along with blood but not a lot. I did faint as my husband told me, I don't remember.

I just wondered over the course of your miscarriage, how did you feel? For the first couple of days when we found out I felt upset, worthless and annoyed. I felt no guilt, towards what had happened because I knew it wasn't me. After about 4 days I started to feel relieved? And excited about getting back to me for a bit. But after last night I feel shit again because I know now it's going to probably take me a little longer before I can go back to gym and start running and that again.

I'm trying to be patient with my body, it's just hard when you had a child already and all you want to do is feel normal?

I was so excited this year about having another but now I just really want to get back to me and try later on towards the end of the year. I'm not forgetting my husband either on this, he too has been emotional, and not slept very well. He is in no rush either. Did anyone else feel like this or?

Thanks Sam

So sorry you are going through this. I had a miscarriage in April - I've felt all sorts of emotion. A bit of relief as there would've been only just two years between my DS and baby and was stressing about how I'd cope. I then felt sad that I'd lost DS's sibling. I have come to terms with it now but hoping to get pregnant soon.

Do they have a specialist councillor at your local hospital?

I hope you are feeling better soon x

Thank you, I'm sorry for your loss too.

I'm not sure really? I never really asked. I understand you can have a lot of emotions after and feel alsorts. I just wasn't expecting this? I'm still going through the miscarriage part, so I have the hormones in my blood which I think is making me feel up and then a bit numb.

I just feel the physical part is draining me. I want to get back to normal but then I know it won't happen over night.

It might be worth asking if there is one so you can talk about how you are feeling if you are still not feeling yourself. It's such a taboo subject as people don't like to talk about it. My one friend I confided in took the opportunity to tell me she was pregnant whilst I was miscarrying, she's due the same date I would've been so when I see her I am upset - more with her timing of when she told me.

Give yourself time, it's a big thing for you and your husband to go through. Don't be surprised if you have 'good and bad' days. There's no reason for you not to get back running when you feel up to it. Do things that make you feel better when you are up to it

Yeah I may do. I just think last night threw me, and made me realise I will recover but not just yet.

I'm sorry you are going this and with your friend having the same due date, I can't imagine. Ours would of been due on Christmas Day all being well. Things can only get better .

I know I would just like to run again or do something like that to make me feel me and not feel like a slump/fat. It's hard going, and I feel my patience has gone out the window.

With my first miscarried I was relieved a little. Then mad at myself, and sad about the whole situation. Like you, I just wanted to be me again and start my running back up (had only just got back into it after dd) and working out big time.
I personally did it as soon as I physically could. Even though it was hard I knew I had to do something even if it was 10 squats and some stretching.
It is the only other thing that has gotten me through my miscarriages and made me not a grumpy partner and mum

Thank you, I feel relieved that I'm not the only one.

I understand everyone has different emotions flying about when they have a miscarriage.

I don't feel it's the end, I just think I have to enjoy my daughter a bit longer and myself/husband before we have another.