I have had a similar experience. First pregnancy. On the Saturday I was 12 weeks (Bank Holiday Weekend) I had some brown spotting and symptoms of a UTI. Called 111, saw out of hours GP. He just gave me antibiotics.
Bank Holiday Monday, I had dark black blood. So I called 111 again, saw a different Gp who referred me to a hospital.
My husband came with me, we did the usual blood pressure etc. They said it was probably the UTI causing the pain / discharge but will scan to be sure.
So we sat anxiously outside the scan room, I knew in my heart then that it wasn’t going to be ok. We went in, sat in silence as she ran the machine over my tummy. These words will stick with me forever “How far along are you?”
“12 weeks”
“I am not seeing a 12 week sac, there is a pregnancy sac but I will have to do an internal scan to see”
I left the room, came back and felt absolutely numb when she told me that what was in the sac was only measuring 5/6 weeks. I was told to come back a week later to see if there was any progress.
So we left, I was in complete melt down for the week. Went back a week later, confirmed that it hadn’t grown so was put in a private room to discuss options.
I am having a D&C on Tuesday under general anaesthetic.
The cruellest part is my body continues to think it’s pregnant. I have a small bump, sickness still etc.
You must be feeling a whole range of emotions , but I can offer one piece of advice “find the positive” where is the positive in this situation ? There has to be one. The positive for me is it has bought my husband and I closer than I ever thought we could be. I am stronger mentally than I ever thought I was.
Cry if you need to cry, sleep if you want to sleep. You need to give in to yourself.
People don’t discuss missed miscarriages, I never knew it could happen. But it does and it is the most devasting thing. Please don’t give up, there is a light at the end x x