I am, these days, a well-adjusted and rational woman with two DS, who both arrived ‘emphatically’ in the world as 10 pounders. I am used to having to surrender to the power and shock of what the female body endures. Because we are amazing, obvs.
But I’m now 3.5 weeks into this natural miscarriage (at 7 weeks - emotionally I’m fine and was more prepared for a MC than success actually because: statistics & being 42)
AND YET
I would just like to know how much more blood, clots and gunk could possibly be left to drop out of my body? I thought my uterus was supposed to be the size of a small grapefruit at 7 weeks - in which case how has it managed to produced chunks that would fill an entire fruit bowl?
I don’t particularly want a D&C or tablets - I have enough birth trauma left in me not to want to be fiddled with anymore, thank you.
But the bleeding has come in waves - like the shipping forecast, light to moderate for the first week, then several heavy hours of chunks, then tailed off, then the Return of The Chunks (which oozed out on the chair while DH’s work colleague was here for afternoon tea - how I made it to the bathroom without them seeing I don’t know)... then I thought it was tailing off at 3 weeks but have just had more days of heavy chunks, again.
I am a reluctant doctor visitor, I confess. But today, on Day 32, I started to feel dizzy and think my red blood count is low. Dammit. I am gong to go to the doctor, aren’t I?