Missed miscarriage at 12 weeks... devastated

[CobaltRose]

Hi everyone. Never thought I'd be here, but here I am.

I'm 21 and up until today thought I was 11+6 weeks pregnant with my first child. Everything seemed fine until Sunday, when I stood up from the sofa and had a gush of bright red blood. This slowed down and turned into brown spotting within a few minutes.

I called my local EPU and arranged a scan for this morning. I felt somewhat hopeful going into it as the bleeding had stopped. However, we were devastated to discover that baby had stopped developing several weeks ago and we had no idea. I still feel pregnant now

I just feel so numb right now. I'm booked in to have a ERPC tomorrow. What does the procedure involve? What is the recovery like?

I'm feeling so exhausted and numb right now.

Oh I'm so sorry for your loss,

I know exactly how you feel. Last Thursday I had an ERPC when I should have been 10 weeks pregnant, we found out 2 weeks before that our baby stopped developing at 6+2.

The ERPC itself was nowhere near as bad as I thought it was going to be. The thought of a general anaesthetic terrified me but it was fine, all the staff at the hospital were fantastic and I was home around 8 hours after going in. Bleeding wise it's been like a heavy period and cramps have been eased off with ibroprofen and cocodamol. I just feel shattered, I've never known tiredness like it so I'm trying to rest (as much as I can with a 3 year old on school holidays!) GP has signed me off for another week at least so it's nice to know I don't have to worry about work.

The hardest bit is the emotional side. I've gone from feeling numb like you, to empty, sad, angry and all of them again. How is your partner feeling? What angers me is when everyone asks how I am but never bothers to ask my husband how he's doing 😔

Oh I really wish there was something I could say to make it all feel better, what I've realised going through this is to just take one day at a time and if you need to just have a good cry and get it all out. We've asked for our baby to be returned to us after the hospital have run their tests, going to bury him/her in our garden under a beautiful tree and hope that will bring some closure.

Take care of yourself, if you need a chat or a rant pm me. At first I thought I was alone but there's so many going through this horrible thing, sadly no one talks about it enough xxx

I am so so sorry. I found out I had had a mmc with my first pg when we went for a scan at 13 odd weeks. I was devastated.
I agree with the poster who said the hardest part was the emotional side. I remember leaving the hospital feeling like shit and the sun shining and people were happy. I spent a long time randomly bursting into tears and worrying I may never have kids.
You need to be kind to yourself and allow yourself to grieve. Take care OP.

OP, I'm so so sorry. I'm miscarrying as I type this - just to say I feel your pain and I'm sending you strength xx