I am a mess, triggering post

[xxxParisexxx]

Hi all, on the 17th Feb I had a reassurance scan and was meant to be 8 weeks. The embryo hadn't developed properly and the sac had grown but no heartbeat etc. This was a Saturday. I had a missed miscarriage.
The Wednesday i had my first lot of medical management. Nothing. The following Tuesday I had my second lot, nothing. And finally Monday just gone I had my MVA procedure
I am a mess after this procedure. All that keeps going through my mind is the awful sound of the pregnancy being sucked out of me. I had so much gas and air for not only the discomfort but the feeling and not wanting to feel quite with it/in the room but still I was sobbing every time I felt my belly being pumped and the sucking sound.
Am I normal for feeling so upset. I know the baby/embryo hadn't formed properly so should I be grieving for what wasn't a "proper" baby. My.partner just keeps saying nothing was there, if u were further along you would be more upset etc. But I was pregnant and I'm so sad about it all. Thanks in advance xx

I'm so sorry for your loss, OP. I was in a similar position in that I lost a pregnancy at six weeks which hadn't developed properly.

Just because it didn't develop properly, it doesn't mean you aren't allowed to feel the pain of a loss and grieve for what might have been.

Be kind to yourself and allow yourself time to grieve properly.

Oh Parisse, yes you are normal for feeling sad about your loss. You will grieve because you have suffered a loss. There's no shame in that at all and you may feel sad for some time. It's hard for partners to understand because they don't feel anything in the early stages of pregnancy. I've had 2 missed miscarriages picked up at 12 week scan and you don't forget the babies that you've lost but it does get easier. Be kind to yourself, give yourself time and show your partner this thread if you feel it's appropriate so they can understand that what you're feeling is valid and real. I'm so sorry for your loss