I don’t know how I’m supposed to feel now

[Coffee3]

Sorry for the long emotional post, I am feeling very sad and very lost
I had 2 miscarriages last year and then had a break for a few months as I found myself really depressed after the second one.
We tried again and I took a positive test on 18/1; all seemed to be going well and I had a early scan on 16/2 due to some bleeding which showed a strong heartbeat and a baby measuring 7+5 which was spot on for my dates. I felt so happy and so relieved.
The bleeding continued but didn’t worsen and EPU advised that it may take 2 weeks to settle but to go back if it got worse.
On Wednesday evening this week I woke in the night with severe cramps and spent a few hours passing some clots and blood; although not as much as I had at 6 weeks when miscarrying so I stupidly still felt optimistic.
I returned to EPU on Thursday and the scan showed no baby .
I feel as though my heart is breaking; my husband is upset and doing a good job at trying to look after me but this is being made worse by the fact that I am in a lot of pain but not really losing any more blood; the scan showed no baby / sac but some tissue remaining to come out.
I just feel like I’m in limbo and don’t know how to feel or to how to feel better and not become a raging emotional monster.
I called EPU back today and asked for surgery but they don’t have the facility to offer this at the weekend and I wasn’t able to make any decisions when I went on Thursday.
Anyone have any advice to deal with the emotional pain? I know that time is a great healer but that’s not helping me today 😢

Morning.
Sorry to read about your loss.
I miscarried back in January too and find myself in similar emotional state.
We're all stronger than we think we are and it'll get easier.
If we didn't feel the way that we do now then we wouldn't be particular maternal!
Hang in there babe xxx

@Coffee3 I'm so sorry to hear this. Time will help but for now the only advice I can give is to follow your heart. If you need to cry do so, if you want to be left alone, let your husband know or even if you want to get out of the house. We all deal with our grief in different ways. xx

Big hug, I've had similar too, after theee miscarriages I was referred to a miscarriage expert. She put me
On low dose aspirin and high dose folic acid
Amongst other things - ask your GP or
Hospital for a
Referral

I’ve just had my third miscarriage (still bleeding in fact). It’s devastating. Feel however you feel, there’s no right or wrong.

Thanks so much for all the responses, and I’m sorry that so many of you have experienced the same. It is truly heartbreaking and so so hard.
The hospital have referred me to the recurrent miscarriage clinic, which I know is a positive thing, it just doesn’t feel it today.

@HidCat that’s a good point about going out; I’m not usually in the house for long stretches and that’s probably not helping. I’m worried about having cramps and losing a lot of blood out in public but I don’t need to go far I suppose.

@flumpybear do you mind me asking if the aspirin and folic acid worked?