So many mixed feelings right now!!
Me and my partner were trying for a baby for two years and we found out we were pregnant on 20th Nov ☺️☺️ We were so overwhelmed with emotions. We waited so long and finally our love was creating a new little life!! We went for our first antenatal on 16th Dec where we found out we were 8 weeks 😆 On 3rd Jan whilst at work I passed blood in my wee... I went straight to the hospital where they scanned me. A part of me was scared as I thought the worst was happening. And another part of me was excited that I would be seeing my baby for the first time! 💖💙 The S scanned me and told me that normally at 10 weeks + 6 days they should see a baby with a heartbeat but they couldn’t see anything. All they saw on my scan was the Pregancy Sac filled with Fluid... but no baby 😔 I went for a second scan later that day as they told me the first scan was inconclusive, and they confirmed my worst fears. We have had a failed pregnancy 😔😔 I feel so broken and empty. The minute your body is pregnant your body changes and I felt such a love for my unborn baby. And now I feel so empty. Every time I feel like I’m okay I feel guilty for smiling and break again. My partner has been an absolute god send and I am so grateful to him for being my rock through all of this.