Hi all I found out last Tuesday my baby had stopped growing I went into hospital on Thursday for erpc and the doctor punctured my womb and couldn't complete so Ive had to do Christmas knowing everything has ended it's just not finished 
so now I'm having the tablets Thursday and I'm scared my previous mmc I handled naturally which was traumatic but I had a closure.
I'm worried what lays ahead my anxieties are high I keep dreaming my one year old dies and Ive also starting thinking maybe my husband was planning too leave me after Christmas. I got through yesterday today's been harder and I can imagine tomorrow harder still.
I have questions I would like some testing done I don't know if docs will agree I've had one baby MMC one baby MMC so they haven't followed each other but I'm now over 35 under active thyroid and pcos sorry for ramble