A year ago today

[Notmissmoneypenny]

Found today really tough. A year ago today I lost my baby at 7+3. Have had to spend most of today with my pregnant colleague and listen to people congratulate her. Watch her cradle her bump and talk about being pregnant. She doesn’t know I had a miscarriage and I’m happy for her but also sad for me.
I didn’t feel as bad on what would’ve been my due date as I do today. Just needed to get that off my chest.

I'm so sorry for your loss ❤

I think it is completely understandable how ur feeling luv. Your grieving, sadly I know only too well the grieving process having lost my sister, brother & dad in we last few years and always feel their anniversary is tougher than their bday. It's the day we lost them.

I'm a week from my MC at 10wks & I am truly devastated and can only imagine the pain uve experienced is similar & I know the 10th of November is goin to effect me forever.

I hope the pain has eased for you over the year but believe me, hurtin on the day u lost your baby is just proof that you loved them with all your heart and you have every right to feel sad.

I think you were incredibly strong in dealing with your workmate and you got through it.

I'm really struggling with going back to work due to 4 mum's to be in my team, tbh I'm still at the numb stage with the unrecognizable face due to the constant sobbing. It's truly devastating as I was in love with my baby already...but I will always love him (don't know if he was a boy but we both just had a feeling).

Sorry for rambling on but I have found these pages really helpful in knowing that others know how I'm feeling & I hope you get some comfort too.

Take care.xxxx

Sending hugs.
It’s such a tough time seeing others going through something you’ve lost out on. Really hope you get your time soon xoxo

Hugs to you too MrsMcN. I really hope work isn’t as bad as you imagine it to be.
I’m due back a week on Tue and dreading seeing ppl who know what I’m going through. One pregnant lady on our team too x

I'm sorry for your loss.

Thanks everyone for your kind words and thoughts they have helped, just having said it ‘out loud’ iykwim has helped too.

Sending for you MrsMcN82, so sorry for your losses.

Been able to work from home the last couple of days and a bit of distance has helped. I don’t want my colleague to feel like she can talk about her baby because of something she doesn’t know. She’s not being insensitive just excited and I understand that.

So so sorry for your loss, it really is heartbreaking :(.. I lost a baby at 12 weeks last year and dates still stick in my mind. I remember how hard I found it at the time being around pregnant women, wasn’t easy and hurt .
Sending lots of love and wish you all the best in your next pregnancy ❤️❤️