I was on holiday this week at 11 weeks pregnant. I had had a tiny bleed before I left but was reassured by my midwife that it was an innocent loss. I went on to bleed light amounts of old blood. On Sunday, I got my first shock of red blood blood and promptly had a 1am check up at the hospital. The doctor said my cervix was closed and that while it was as good as it could be without a scan, one would be scheduled for the following day. My scan showed the tiniest little bean in my pregnancy sac and they confirmed that it had stopped growing at week 6. I was offered a range of treatment options as I was on holiday to ensure I didn't miscarry naturally on the 7 hour drive home. On Wednesday I had misoprostol and miscarriages my baby in the bathroom of our rental cottage. I am still feeling period like cramps and bleeding and although I've cried myself dry and have a wonderful support network, I feel really angry and deceived by my body, something I don't really even feels like it belongs to me anymore. My boobs still hurt and I feel stupid for every time I cradled my little tum and talked to the baby as it seems from the time I knew I was pregnant, it had already died. I don't know what to do.