Scared about miscarriage after ectopic

[NooNooHead1981]

Hi everyone

I had an ectopic and surgery in March and it has taken me a long time to get to where I am now emotionally, and feel slightly accepting of my loss.

I'm now 5w 4d pregnant again and have an early scan at the EPAU booked for a week's time. It was a bit of a surprise to find out I was pregnant again, and I can't help feeling very cautious about being excited about another pregnancy until I reach the 12 week scan. I'm petrified about the scan next week as I have to go on my own as my DH works away three days a week, so I'll be facing the awfulness of it alone.

I'm not sure I can stand another week of waiting - with my DD's dating scan, it was an external one at 6 weeks and so exciting to see her little heart beating away on the screen. I'm not sure I can face seeing nothing there for this one next week, and I really really don't want it to be a bad outcome but am preparing myself for the worst.

I just want another DC so much, I would be utterly heartbroken if I can't have another as I've waited six and half years for this and DH has said no to any more children or trying again if this pregnancy doesn't work out.

I feel for you. I was exactly the same when I got pregnant after my ectopic pregnancy. During my 8 week scan I almost begged the sonographer to tell me if it was going to be okay and of course she couldn’t. To be honest I didn’t really relax until about 29 weeks because I think I had in my head that the baby could survive even if it was born then. And then I was panicking that we were going to have a newborn baby! My son was born at full time term completely healthy. I think once you’ve had a loss like this then is harder to relax I hope it all goes well for you.