I don't usually write on forums but looking for advice from anyone that's experienced a miscarriage. 6 weeks ago I had a silent miscarriage/ERPC at 8 weeks pregnant following our first ivf cycle. I was devastat ed and probably quite naive to miscarriage. I bought baby books and a "I'm going to be a mum" tshirt when we announced our news to our family. We would have waited till 12 weeks but family and close friends were aware we were having ivf. I was devasted initially and cried and cried and cried. Now 6 weeks later I keep getting angry out bursts over small little things which end in me crying.uncontrollably. I feel I have no control over my emotions and I'm finding it frustrating. These outbursts have only been either towards or around my other half. Dinner went wrong today and it resulted in me chucking all the food out. Not eating any lunch,having a go at my parter and crying for an hour. I feel like I want to start smoking again and/or start anti depressants as I've been on them before but if I want to start a new ivf cycle I can't do either so currently resisting. I don't know if I want to do another cycle and even questioning if I want a baby now. We are using donor sperm too and I feel like so much is stacked against us. When do things get better?