Hello ladies
I need somewhere to write this all down otherwise I am just going to cry forever. I have one DS who is 3 next month and he is the only thing keeping me going.
I had a 13 week miscarriage last August which I found incredibly tough to get through. My baby was fine and and healthy at the 12 week scan. I had an ERPC. I then went on to have 3 more miscarriages, all between 5 and 6 weeks.
My period was due on Tuesday and I took a test and got my 6th positive pregnancy test. I took another one today and the line was getting much darker. I have been to the toilet tonight and the bleeding has started. I haven't even made it to 5 weeks this time.
I feel so desperately sad. I don't understand how I can have had a healthy son conceived first go and now I am facing all this. I honestly can't stop crying and I feel like I'm at the end of all this. I can't keep going through this I think it will be the end of me.
I have been referred to Professor Quenby and have an appointment in 3 weeks time. I'm holding on to that referral like it's a life raft. That she is going to magically make me able to carry a baby again. But then reality hits and I know she may not be a miracle worker.
I'm sorry to write just a sad and depressing post. I just need to get it out and to see if anyone is/has gone through anything similar. I don't know where to turn and I'm just so sad. Thanks for reading.