7wk, looks like I'm miscarrying

[Mammabear31]

Have come over here from the pregnancy boards. Yesterday I started getting brown spotting, called EPU and went for a scan. Couldn't see anything in the sac but nurse said dates might be out, booked in for another scan next week. Spotting stopped, then about half an hour ago the heavy bleeding started. I've accepted it's over, but I am now so very sad that our much wanted, would have been a christmas baby is no longer a possibility.

Mammabear, you are going through an awful time and hormones and sadness/anger/grief have a lot to do with how you are at the moment. I have no doubt you are a wonderful mother and you need to be kind to yourself. It is hard enough having to deal with the emotional side of what you have to deal with, and to have ongoing physical effects makes everything worse.

What you feel at the moment is normal and you cannot blame yourself

I can't go through this again. I'm so done with the bleeding, the cramps, the mood swings. I'm at the end of my tether and just want it all to stop.

And yes, I do blame myself. It's my body that's malfunctioning so it cannot be anyone's fault but mine.

Mamabear I know others have already said this, but please be kind to yourself. Yes, it is your body, but it is not you if that makes any sense. There is nothing you could have done to change this.
I am going through a miscarriage at the moment too, so I do know how you feel. Have you been back to the epu so they can check that the miscarriage is progressing as it should?

❤️ I'm so sorry. I do understand the feeling of guilt and responsibility. I feel like I have let people down, my poor husband and our family. With time, it will be easier to remember that this isn't something you caused by anything you did. All the medical staff stressed that to me: there's nothing you could have done differently.

If, once you are physically recovered, you decide you don't want to try again, that is completely your choice and I hope your oh would support whatever decision you make.

It's totally ok to feel angry and pissed off at the world. It's such a crap situation. Thinking of you, sending huge virtual hugs.

Thank you all for your reassurance and kind words. I was feeling very low yesterday, it's not been the best few weeks. I think I'm going to call the EPU tomorrow for advice, as the bleeding has gotten heavier today. I'm worried it's not all coming away, hence the long term bleeding. Plus I haven't seen anything come away; just clots (although I think i had a blighted ovum, so may not anyway). Either way I possibly just need some advice.

It really helps being able to write my worst fears and thoughts here. I appreciate every word written in reply to my ramblings.

I think phoning the epu is a good idea. At the very least they should be able to do a scan and give you a better idea of what is happening to your body. Please know that although this is a forum, and you may not 'know' any of us, we are here for support if you need us.xx

Morning all. Back to say the bleeding stopped yesterday, however I got a positive pregnancy test this morning. I called the EPU who have made me an appointment to be scanned tomorrow morning.

Just when I thought it was all over!!

Am not feeling as low as I was a few days ago. I'm sorry for my miserable moans and rants.

My pregnancy tests showed positive for at least three weeks. Hopefully it's just the hormones leaving your system. Glad you are feeling a little better. And there's no need to apologise for anything, this is a time to rant!!

It's a positive sign you have stopped bleeding and at least they are keeping on top of it for you. It is an awful time and it seems never ending!

Take care of yourself and it's totally ok to feel angry/sad just take each day as it comes xx

It took me 3-4 weeks to get a negative result it's so hard to be student I totally understand x

Patient not student sorry!!

This is todays test.

@PossibiliTea can I ask, was that 3-4 weeks from miscarriage or from when the bleeding stopped? As it's been over 3 weeks since it all stsr5ted. Don't know the exact date I miscarried as it was all small clots for about 2 of the 3 weeks.

Can I just point out the ridiculousness of wanting that positive for over a year; and now I just want a negative?!

I know :( when they did a test at the epu I was pleased for a second when they said it was negative then heartbroken it's a horrible experience.

It took me about 4 weeks from the miscarriage to get negative, my bleeding has been a bit all over the place.

How are you getting on? X

Sorry- I had an MVA so it was 4 weeks from then. So I think it is normal you are still gettin faint positive if they aren't too sure when the miscarriage was complete. Have the epu told you if your hcg levels are dropping? X

Hi. Scan was all clear, apart from a small amount of thickening womb but the nurse was confident it wasn't anything to worry about. I haven't had my HCG levels checked before, but she did do a blood test before I left and will call me with the results later.

The pregnancy test the nurse did was negative. She's advised to have a period before we start trying again

Nurse has just called, HCG 62 so going in the right direction. Have to do another test on Friday next week, if still positive then go back for another blood test but nurse seems confident it will be reduced enough by then.

So more waiting!

I know it's hard to believe but these are positive things. I'm waiting on my second cycle it feels like forever but I want everything to be right first! I'm only waiting for my second one because they think there's still a clot/polyp.

Hoping that next week will go well for you xx

Just a quick update.

Bleeding/spotting has been over for nearly a week. I am finally starting to feel like myself again, and we are jumping straight back on the TTC wagon.

Thank you all so very much for your advice and support. I couldn't have got through the nightmare of our situation without this sounding board and feedback so thank you, thank you, thank you. You're all angels.

Just a quick update.

Bleeding/spotting has been over for nearly a week. I am finally starting to feel like myself again, and we are jumping straight back on the TTC wagon.

Thank you all so very much for your advice and support. I couldn't have got through the nightmare of our situation without this sounding board and feedback so thank you, thank you, thank you. You're all angels.

I know it's so unfair isn't it, thinking of you 🌺