This is the last place I ever thought I would find myself posting. I am sad for each and everyone of us who finds ourselves posting here. It is so unfair and the pain is unbeareable.
This wasn't meant to happen. It wasn't supposed to be like this. I am supposed to be pregnant and happy and make plans and think positively. I am not supposed to be crying everyday and waiting for the miscarriage to happen. It is not supposed to be like this. I don't know what to do, what to think, how to get myself out of this hell.
I had an early scan where I was supposed to be 7+1 but I measured two weeks behind about 5 weeks. I was told to go to EPU for management. The gestational sac was 6.1mm.
On monday, I was scanned at the EPU and the gestational sac and yolk sac were 6.8mm and 1.1 mm respectively.
Tuesday I had a scan and the gestational sac was 7.8mm.
Yesterday, I had another scan and the gestational sac was 8.4mm and the yolk sac was 2.4mm.
I have been asked to come in for another scan in two weeks.
I have been having brown discharge that's why they have scanned me multiple times to check for bleeds inside.
I was fine as the sac were growning. But when I came home yesterday I noticed the note on the report saying the gestational sac is collapsing. After a fair amount of googling I found out that an mc is imminent. I just don't know what to think and do.
Thank you for listening. I am so sorry for all these babies who have been loved and lost. It's too cruel.