Just wanted to vent. I put the first part of this story on another thread, but didn't want to hijack it hence starting my own.
First pregnancy I was incredibly lucky: conceived easily, healthy pregnancy, traumatic delivery but all fine in the end.
Trying to produce a little brother or sister though has been hard so far. TTC 12 months, 1st BFP July early MC in Aug.
2 nd BFP sept, healthy scan at 7 +5, but bleeding at 11+5 and scan showed MMC with baby 8+3 size. I though I went on to miscarry the next day - very intense cramps, lots of bleeding and big clots. I didn't see an obvious sac but it all went down the loo. Went to get a scan today to check but the sac was still obvious low around the cervix. They thought they might be able to pull it out with forceps by doing a speculum exam, but it wasn't obvious. Again lots of clots, def some fetal tissue, but perhaps not all of it. I've had a lot of bleeding since. If it hasn't settled in the next 24 hours I'm likely to need Erpc, which I know is probably fine, but I've never had a GA and it scares me.
So I suppose I'm just looking for a little solidarity... I feel really pesemistic now, and I'm just not sure how I'll know whether everything has passed. I don't want a GA but I don't want retained products either.
I can't help but feel when this is all over, if I get pregnant again it'll just happen again and I'm so sad.