I just want it to be over

[onecrazycook]

On Monday I found out that I've had a MMC. I should be 10 weeks but following spotting, a scan showed a sac but no visible baby. The bleeding has increased to dark brown clots but nothing more.

I'm so devastated and heartbroken I can't stand it. I just want it all to be over.

What can I do to push the miscarriage on? I start a new job on Monday and I just want a fresh start.

Mine was earlier so I don't know but I'm sorry. Sending you healing thoughts.

It does get easier. I know it's what everyone says but that desperate pain changes in to something more manageable. At least for me anyway.

You should have been told the options by the hospital. I was offered the waiting for it to happen naturally, medical management or surgical. I'd be wary of expecting yourself to be okay to start work - now I'm recovering physically the emotional bit is just starting to kick in. I think I was on autopilot mode, making sure things at home okay and sorted (with DH's help) but now I'm floored for want of a better word.

Ps sorry for your loss. It really is a shit thing to happen.

They will discuss options on Tuesday with me. There's a question mark about a tiny mark on the scan that "could" be a yolk sac, but that would only make me 4 weeks and I know I'm more. They are rescanning to be 100% sure but I know, and they are 99.99% I've miscarried. I want it to just happen naturally before then. The waiting is killing me

It's horrible isn't it. Look after yourself. Don't try to do too much. I am normally very capable and efficient and I am just struggling to do much at the moment.

I was in the same boat 3 months ago. Scan showed 6 weeks when should have been 8. I carried on as normal. Went to work as a cleaner and worked hard. Contractions started the next day and I passed the tiny one alone at work (a house) think maybe all that hoovering helped things along really.

Sorry for your loss.

daughter 5 weeks pregnant and called me into her room on sat morning,She had been to loo and wiped and blood on tissue quite a bit but after a while only tiny bit when she wiped.It was a shock when we found out she was pregnant as she is only 20 and at uni.We just got used to idea when she had bleed.She had cramps in stomach and back ache before bleed but this settled down on sat. We all mixed up again as we don't know if she has lost it and she is going for scan on thurs when she should be back at uni.She is still being sick but have been told this could be hormones in body.Waiting till thurs seems endless.Trying to support her but struggling big time with my emotions at the moment as I wish she hadn't got pregnant but she will be sad to lose it.