hi all,
I haven't posted on here before but am feeling the need for like minded people tonight! My baby making experience has been fraught and emotional and difficult and whilst I am more than aware that my experience is nowhere near as bad as some others I am feeling a little broken today.
I am lucky enough to have 2 beautiful boys (nearly 6 yrs & just turned 1)
Getting pregnant with no:2 was very distressing - we had trouble getting pregnant and then I had 2 missed miscarriages (12 weeks scans are terrifying for me) both ending in an ERPC. I also had to have one of my fallopian tubes removed in emergency surgery due to a torsion.
recently we started trying for No:3 - husband not overly keen but knows how much it means to me to have another child.
I was delighted to get a positive first response test last week and spent 4 days doing countless tests and becoming more and more excited. However on Monday (i'm not sure when my period was due as my cycle all over the place) i did 5 tests over the day and they all started coming back negative.
Then Monday night I started bleeding heavily. I'm guessing I have suffered a chemical pregnancy. I am devastated - I was just starting to imagine our life with number 3 - would love a smaller gap between no:2 and no:3 and to be honest now I am terrified its going to keep happening.
I'm not sure me and hubby can manage another experience like last time.
Sorry to moan - had anyone had similar experiences?
thanks in advance