Struggling after early miscarriage

[CwtchMeQuick]

I had an early miscarriage in April this year, the pregnancy was unplanned but I was absolutely heartbroken. My friend also lost a baby just after me, and we kind of grieved together. My friend, my partner and my ds were what got me through. 5 months on, me and my partner have broken up, and my friend is pregnant again. I've been taking everything a day at a time and things are slowly beginning to get easier. But today I feel like I've hit a brick wall. I should be 27 weeks pregnant, I should be feeling my baby kick, I should be writing a shortlist of names with my partner. Instead I am feeling so terribly lonely. My baby is gone. All of my plans for the foreseeable future are gone. I don't really have anyone that I can talk to about this anymore. My friend has been so sensitive to my loss and she would be devastated if she knew I was struggling with her being pregnant again when I am as far from pregnant as I could possibly be.

Not really sure what I'm aiming to gain from this, I just needed to get things off my chest I think. Does anyone have any tips on dealing with this? I'm dreading the next few months as I'm approaching what would have been my due date etc. Thank you for reading if you've made it this far

Sorry for your loss. I think you are doing the right thing in reaching out to other people who have experienced the same loss as you have. My tip is to go through other threads on this forum to get the support you need.

I have really struggled with my m/cs and I found that unless people have gone through it they don't understand. I have used this forum to help me realise that my feelings are normal and other people feel the same. Although it doesn't change what has happened, we can sound off each other.

You aren't alone in how you feel. It is hard and hurtful and I am sure we will never forgot. But there has to be happiness ahead. I am trying to think of positive changes I can make in my life. For me exercise is one of those things. Be kind to yourself.

I totally agree that people don't understand unless they have gone through it, and I don't think they really know how to respond.

I've been trying to get back into running as I stopped around the time of the miscarriage, and this is helping to a degree.

Thank you for replying