I recently went on the holiday I promised myself after my mc and wrote this whilst I couldn't sleep one night. Didn't really know what to do with it so thought I'd share it on here ?
Full Circle
I could say I had a baby
growing deep inside
I could say I had a baby
I should also say he died
I could tell you of the pain that night
overwhelmingly severe
I could tell you how I tried to hope
but soon gave way to fear
I could wonder what he'd look like
or what he could have been
I could wonder what on earth went wrong
that no one had for seen
"It can't have been your time" you say
"you're bound to have another"
But I wanted this one I silently cry
not their sister or their brother
This month it is my due date
I should hold him in my arms
shower him with kisses
and keep him safe from harm
Instead it's time to try again
It's nearly been a year
Waiting for that small blue line
that suddenly won't appear
My husband holds me close and says
"It's enough, just you and me"
But secretly I promise him
I'll make our 2 a 3 !
I can say I have a baby
and it's not the one who died
I can say I have a baby
and this time she survived