Possible 3rd miscarriage, I can´t do this again :(

[escorpion]

After two miscarriages in Feb 2013 and July 2013, I decided to give my body a break and have some testing done. This was just basic testing that can be done here where I live. I already have thyroid issues which are under control, and I have PCO but don´t think I have the syndrome. Everything else on me came up normal.

My gyno told me to start taking high dose of folic acid and baby aspirin upon a BFP. Everything was going relatively well, even have had symptoms this time, but for about a week now, I have had spotting, light brown, pink, green, (visible on wiping) and have had two blood stains upon wiping. Also a tiny red piece of tissue went into the toilet bowl after a pee. I have lower back pain on one side too.

I just don´t think I can do this again, both my other MC started around the same time.

I don´t think I can think about losing another pregnancy. What it means to be operated on or wait it out, which can be weeks. I am working too, which means I will have to make something up to my colleagues.

I´m tired of this shit. Why me? I am trying to get an emergency appointment with my gyno so I can get referred for an early scan, but I am not hopeful. My heart is so heavy. I can´t do this again, so I guess my chances of being a Mum are over. Sorry for the rant. Thanks for listening.

I'm so sorry to hear this. I hope you get some answers if this is your third mc. Hugs xxxx

Oh OP, that's not ranting, and you're right, it's so bloody unfair.

I can sort of sympathise - have not have a miscarriage but I have PCOS and can't get a BFP, after 2 years of trying & treatments.

You don't know that anything is wrong. Maybe previous experience has made you ultra aware and wary? Can hospital check things for you? (You don't say how many weeks you are?)
Do you have a nice partner to lean on?

Thanks for your support. I am trying to get in with my gyno today as an emergency, then I suppose he would take a look and refer me for a scan. I´m so worried. I do have a partner who is lovely, but I live in a different country to my family which is the hardest part when all you want is a hug and a nice cup of tea :(
Worst thing is I swear every time this happens to me, one of my husbands family announces their pregnancy, so I always get to see what I could have had. So heartbreaking. If this is MC3, I don´t think I want to do any more testing. I don´t think I could put myself through multiple MC, so I have kind of resigned myself to the fact that this is the end.

Please don't give up hope. I know its so hard. I have pcos and it took me three years to conceive my first. I had huge bleeds in early pregnancy too but we got through it and she's nearly 4 now. It's bloody unfair when somw people churn out kids so easily. Really hope you get there. Look after yourself xxx

Hi Scorpion I sadly have had 3 mc's. I feel your pain and really hope it's nothing to worry about

But lots of hand holding and hugs xx