Still struggling ..... Is it normal???

[mrsfazruns]

MMC medically managed on 22nd dec and HCG only reduced to negative 2 weeks ago!! My friend had the same DD as I did and is all over Instagram today how she has been feeling the baby move and I'm really upset!! I'm More angry at myself that my stupid body failed to grow MY baby and then took so long to get back to normal .... I've still not had a proper period so we can't even get back to trying! Days like today just really upset me and DH thinks I need to just stop letting it get to me and just get in with it!! Feel so lost and alone in it ..... Like I'm the only one that ever cared about it!! And feel like I'm
Being so stupid!!!!

It's perfectly normal to feel like that.

I had a miscarriage in July and have had several instances of tears this months when friends have announced pregnancies, births and other pregnancy related things. It's all around me - at work, close friends ... I can't escape it and even now 8 months later it has the ability to destroy me for hours.

Different people can seem to put it behind them, I've found it really hard.

Considering 5 months ago I didn't want another baby (DS is 18 next month) I never ever thought I'd feel like this .... And now feel utter desperation to try again!!! It's such a horrible feeling .... And so so lonely x

I suffered my 3rd mc in a row back in January and I am most definitely still struggling.

Plus colleague who sits directly opposite is pregnant and a close friend is pregnant and I had to miss her baby shower yesterday as too painful.

I'm still struggling so I feel your pain.

Hugs xx

Brummiegirl that sounds exactly how I'm feeling .... Was supposed to meet my friend today and she then posted that she has been feeling baby kick all day for first time ...... So made a stupid excuse and avoided her again!!! Just can't deal with it .... DH jut says ours wasn't meant to be .... But why wasn't it meant to be!! Feel like a spoiled child but I want to stamp m feet and scream ITS JUST NOT FAIR!!!!

mrsfraz mc is shit. It makes you think, do and feel irrational things. All of what you are describing is totally normal. The day i had mc no2 confirmed and was booked in for an erpc a friend told me she was pg. Baby was due/born a month beforey edd. She is prolific on facebook and suffered chronic sickness. Everytime she posted I thought how I'd gladly be throwing up here there and everywhere if I still had my baby. It took me 9 months to get pg again and today is my due date. My lost baby would be 11 months old. I still think of it.

What I am trying to say is you are not a horrible person and neither are you alone. There are a lovely bunch of ladies on the ttc after mc thread who are all stages of grieving/ttc. When you are feeling up to it maybe pop in there. You will find yourself in great, supportive company (if horrible circumstances). I hope all goes well for you x

I second what salty, brummie, and holly are saying. My first mc was last September and I had to go see a counsellor because I just couldn't get past my feelings of loss. The one thing that they said that really struck me was that I was grieving and I just needed to give myself time to feel everything as it's all part of the healing process.

A colleague of mine is about 20 weeks and I find all the pregnancy and baby talk so hard because I keep thinking those are conversations that I should be having and then I feel bad for how selfish I feel.

MC is the shittest thing on earth that has ever happened to me but it happens to a lot of women, so at least we're not alone.

Hi everyone just thought I would give an update .... I still think everyday about the MC but finally had AF so feel a sense of relief that we can get back to normal and start trying again (much to DH delight)! My friend just had her 20 week scan which I found really difficult - I've still not seen her but chatted to her a lot about how i feel and she is the most understanding person in the world!

Just wanted anyone who is struggling to come to terms with things to know it gets easier!