Hi all, I'm just wondering if anyone can relate to what I've been through so far and/or can provide some positive stories? I'm 27 and my DH and I are ttc our first.
We started ttc in may last year, 6 cycles in total (we've had a little break since then). I usually get af on 12dpo. On the 2nd cycle, I started with a brown discharge on 10dpo (I never get pre-af spotting). I tested thinking it was implantation, bfn up until 14dpo when I got the faintest bfp imaginable on 3 ICs then my period started an hour later. The spotting had been consistent since 10dpo. Once my period was over (which was just like normal) I got a bfn.
Cycle 6, I again started with a brown discharge on 11dpo which again continued. On 13dpo I got a bfp on frer. In the next few days i got stronger bfps and 1-2 weeks on a digital. After about 4 further days I went to the gp who reassured me it was normal however a day later I passed a fingernail sized clot then the next day had a bleed, so thought it was over. However I continued to spot and a few days after that did another frer for closure and it was an even stronger bfp! Few days later, went to epau who wouldn't scan as I was less than 6 weeks but did a test which was bfn (on VERY diluted urine as I had drank lots of water expecting a scan!) and said I'd had a miscarriage. 4 days later I started bleeding heavily for around 5 days and it's only then that my symptoms went and eventually it all stopped. So I'm not sure exactly at which point I had the miscarriage - somewhere between 4.5 and 6 weeks.
So 2 early miscarriages which were very different but they started off the same. I'm terrified of going through it again and finding out I have a problem with implantation. For me, pregnancy means spotting at around 10dpo and if I see this again I'm going to freak as it has both times led to miscarriage (I'm trying to tell myself it might have just been implantation). I don't want to go to the gp for blood tests yet as I have a phobia so I just want to give myself another go.