I have lost 4 pregnancies in 2 years. One a late term loss (twins) about 18 months ago.
I've gone through the stage where everyone I know is pregnant and, I thought, come out the other side. I've been to SANDS groups, talked things through. I know that there is no baby quota where if someone has a baby it means that I can't. I thought I was dealing with everything.
But recently I feel dragged down by it all again. I feel that there are so many people I know/friends of friends who are having their umpteenth child or having twins (which I find more difficult to deal with). I feel a general level of anger and irritation at baby group friends (I have a 4 year old) going on about their pregnancies (I know they're not really going on about it, it just feels like it).
I think I just feel generally let down by life. I don't feel depressed, I very much appreciate having my 4 year old, but I feel like I can't shake off this low level anger about our losses.
I've had tests done, which have highlighted issues but none which are likely to be linked to the losses.
I wish I could snap out of it (or, have a healthy baby!)