Anyone else ever feel like they want to just crawl under a rock?

[impatientlywaiting14]

I Feel like I am sinking and just want to retreat away at the moment, from everyone and everything related to bumps and baby's and give my head and heart a rest. I am trying to be brave and keep a smile on and keep positive. But it feels like those that are aware of the loss I had are forgetting the pain I may be feeling and how hard it has been and those that are oblivious are, well, oblivious! I hate feeling like this I just want to feel normal again I DONT WANT to feel so much self pity. I just want to walk around with a (relatively) happy heart again not a heavy one.

Im really Sorry for the depressing post and Thank-you in advance for any responses XXXX

Dp has just returned from a business trip. I've handed DD over and locked myself in the bedroom, I just can't face today. It is essential that I pull myself together but all I can do is sit here fantasising about quitting my job and opting out of normal life for a couple of weeks. dp is being understanding but he isn't a very emotional personality and looks slightly bemused. This will get easier won't it?

Hi Leela

I'm sorry to hear you were struggling at work xx
That's awful, I don't even know what to say some people honestly I get sick of hearing that phrase think positively when it follows a sad event, it makes it feel like its being minimized. How are you today? xx

Bakingtins

That's so very true the whole "at least thing" just feels like the whole event is being minimized, whether that was the intention or not. Yes we do have to discover the silver linings ourselves and find our own way to cope with our grief, not have people try and fast forward us through it xx

slightlyconfused85
ohhh im so sorry that sounds really crap, It will get better I promise you it may not seem like it now but it honestly does get better you will no doubt have wobbly days like scan dates, your due ect and the days in between the good days that may knock you quite a bit with the strength of emotions, but overall coping with it day-to-day will get better.

I am feeling better again and im sure a lot of that is down to being able to post on here with lovely understanding ladies. Keep posting whenever you need someone BIG HUGS XXXX

Just home after my erpc today, thanks everyone for your advice and kind words! It all went fine and I can't thank the staff at Lagan valley hospital more! They were all lovely and the feeling of being given the anaesthetic was lovely! So glad it will now bring the hormones back to normal and no more sore chest and nausea!! This has been a difficult time but family, friends and this site all so helpful and supportive. Don't suffer in silence , tell those close to you how you feel x

Hi MrsMac51

That's really good to hear that it all went well, I know you were worried about the anesthetic wasn't you? I'm pleased to hear you also felt you received good care. I think that can also influence the grieving and recovery process. My ultrasound technician was very harsh, we were told there was no pregnancy then basically sent on our way .

I'm glad you have lots of support in real life to make this difficult time in your life more bearable and feel supported on here. Keep posting and let me know how you are getting on XXX

Hi impatiently waiting14, how are you?
I'm getting there, actually I've had a rough few days mentally but family circle and friends been so helpful . I agree with what you said, the dr at the first scan was so harsh, like this is how it is blah blah ... It's like she had been trained that way to deliver the truth but nurses were all so much nicer , I also think it was a poor show that I had to wait over a week and half from having the missed miscarriage confirmed until they could get me a slot for the erpc! I'm sick of people posting baby stuff and announcements and scans of fb!!! Arrgghhhhhh! It really grinds my gears!! I will never be excited about being pregnant again if it happens , until I have a healthy baby in my arms. Thank god for chocolate , tea and sympathy and the odd glass of plonk to get us through! Back to work tomorrow so at least my mind will be kept busy! Xxx

So sorry for what you have been through MrsMac51. The constant baby bombs on Facebook suck. I've come off Facebook for that very reason; no longer being constantly bombarded with scan and baby pictures has definitely helped my sanity

I hid from Facebook for a while too. 2 pregnancies and a birth the week I had my mc.
I'm now on insulin to bring my sugar down. Hopefully we can try again soon. Time definitely does heal - I don't cry when I see a pregnant woman or a tiny baby anymore.
So many people have said 'At least you know you can get pregnant' - I may punch the next one. It's no bloody good getting pregnant if I can't stay pregnant. I know people mean well and are trying to reassure but it drives me mad. We only told close friends and immediate family too

Hope everyone is ok, and hugs MrsMac, that sounds awful

Hi all, sorry to hear about everyone else's experiences. I wouldn't wish mc on my worst enemy and I'm only part way through it. Found out at ten week reassurance scan that everything seemed to have stopped growing at five or six weeks. I'm sure of my dates and have been having bleeding on and off plus most my symptoms have gone. Epu calling today to book another scan but know it's hopeless basically. It's all so unknown and even though I suspected it, I still feel like it's kind of happening to someone else. One minute feel fine and the next can't stop sobbing.

BB01 so sorry that you are going through this. I felt much much worse when it was happening, but when it had finally happened although I felt awful I have slowly started to feel a bit better these past few days. Sending you hugs for this horrible experience and keep posting.

Oh BB I'm so sorry. How awful for you. Look after yourself and take care

Thanks Slightly and Purple. I am ok then will be set off by something like my maternity exemption certificate arriving!