Hi all,
I am so sorry to read everyone's stories and I feel almost bad even writing on here as I didn't even know I was pregnant. But on Monday I had a miscarriage and while I'm not mourning the loss of a pregnancy as such, I'm feeling a bit empty. I don't really know how to feel.
I'm sad because I made a baby and I feel like it's directly my fault that it has died, obviously I didn't know I was pregnant so I've been living as normal. (I miscarried a week after my 21st birthday) my family have been very supportive, but at the same time, I'm from a family where lots of bad stuff has happened so sympathy is only dished out in small doses.
I'm not looking for people to feel really sorry for me because I know miscarriage is common, but personally I'm trying to deal with the fact that I was pregnant and now I'm not all in the space of a few days. I just feel lost really, I have so many questions, and the more I think about it all the sadder I get. But then I feel bad not thinking about it.
I know I'm young and everything will be fine but as a woman I've planned what I imagine my kids will be like and thinking about it really puts me out. Which child would that have been? If I'd have looked after myself better could it have lived? Was it nature taking course or did I cause it to die?
Oh well I guess