Another sodding miscarriage

[GinRickey]

Should be 8w3. Started spotting at the weekend, which has increased slightly (light bleed on and off, occasional small clots). Went for a scan today to check what's going on and if I'm miscarrying yet: the sac and baby are measuring six weeks and the technician couldn't see a heartbeat (she didn't really try as it was too small), but not actually miscarrying yet and my cervix is still closed, so they won't officially say "yes it's over". So I have to go back in a week for another scan unless the bleeding gets heavy before then.

Damn. Damn damn damn. I am so ANGRY at my body. After an mmc at 13 weeks two years ago, it took me this long to get pregnant again and now I'm losing it.

All I ask is that I don't need another erpc because that was horrendous.

GinR I'm so sorry you are going through the limbo again. I've had 4 MC, and totally get that feeling of knowing it's all going wrong and being so frustrated that nobody will nail their colours to the mast and say so. The anger is part of grieving, but try not to be too hard on yourself, it really isn't your fault. Even if there should turn out to be something amiss with you that is affecting you getting/staying pregnant, that isn't your fault

If you'd like some support from those who've sadly been through it lots of times, you are very welcome on the recurrent miscarriage thread on this board - there are several ladies who are on MC no 2 at the moment and some discussion about getting testing done 'early'. If you are also having problems conceiving then I would really push for some testing at this stage.