I lost my baby at 12+5, two and a half weeks ago. At my 12 week scan the nuchal measurement was 3.3 mm which gave us a 1:34 risk of downs. When I returned a week later at 13 weeks for Cvs the sonographer scanned me and there was no heartbeat. The baby died at 12+5. I was absolutely devastated. After 2 awful weeks I was just beginning to feel I had started to get my head round if but tonight I feel so low. . I know at 41 I'm unlikely to get another chance. My DH doesn't want to try again. I just feel like I won the lottery and someone has just ripped up the ticket in front of me. Will it ever get easier?