The reality of miscarriage

[SeaSaltMill]

I've noticed today that since having three miscarriages, my outlook on things has changed, and not always for the better.

We are TTC again after being seen at the recurrent miscarriage clinic. I've done the usual, worked out when I will ovulate, when I would find out etc if we are pregnant or not. We are going on holiday in July and I've worked out that from when AF is due to when we go is a week and a half, meaning if I fall pregnant and lose it at 5/6 weeks again, I will be over the worst by the time we go.

That's awful isn't it? It's a terrible thing to feel I have to plan for.

It's made me really sad :( I will never get a BFP and feel happy. I will feel scared. Miscarriage is shit.

I agree completely, and I have been in the exact same position regarding calculations for holidays or other events. So sad, isn't it.

These days, our first reaction to a BFP is 'Here we go again...' . Being pg after mc is like walking on eggshells. I remember how care-free I was during my first pregnancy, it never occurred to me that it could end in mc. I am sad that I will never ever feel that happiness again, now that I know what can happen.

You have to get your blinds on, keep your head down and just look at the end result. And not listen to people who talk about which pram to buy the minute they get their BFP.

Snap - I think not of when will the baby be due, but of what will I be doing at 8-10 weeks when I miscarry?

Miscarriage is indeed shit. I only had one, at 10 weeks, but it's an experience I wouldn't wish on my worst enemy.
Sorry for your losses, ladies. I hope things work out ok for you. I'm there now, but I often think of that wee bean.