mmc dont know what to do

[smilingthroughgrittedteeth]

Just found out my baby stopped growing at 10 weeks im 13 weeks and had some bleeding over the weekend had a scan today and my baby has gone.

I cant stop crying

Have got to decide if I want to let nature take its course, take some pills or have surgery how do I even begin to decide.

Ive never felt pain like this, I dont know why im posting except I need to let it out

[marshmallowpies]

Smiling, I'm holding your hand. Hope you are home soon & resting.

I feel so much more myself today, physically, but the sadness is really hitting me. I have been sat in a cafe for the past hour staring out the window (dd is asleep) and I literally don't have the will to move.

[smilingthroughgrittedteeth]

marshmallow im holding your hand right back x

Im home and resting on the sofa, much to dp's irritation as he thinks I should be in bed, I dont want to go to bed, im not sick im grieving and im afraid if I go to bed I might never want to get up again.

[bakingtins]

Glad it's all done and you are home. Let your DH look after you. Always someone here if you want to talk about it, and it's fine to want to shut yourself away from the world for a while, no need to put a brave face on it.