I was I think about 13 weeks pregnant and had not had my 12 week scan yet - it was scheduled for Thursday morning (oh - just realised that's today) . I had a tiny bit of spotting about 10 days ago although haven't been feeling very pregnant if that makes sense for the past couple of weeks so was fretting about the scan a lot and feeling very worried and expecting the worst.
Today I had a tiny bit of pink discharge this morning so put a pad on so could monitor it. Went out for a walk this morning (thankfully am off work on leave this week) and felt a little crampy but nothing major. Lunchtime there was a very small bit of brown blood on my pad. I had a sit down and rested for a bit then suddenly I felt a pop feeling and a massive gush of fluid that soaked my pad, clothes, sofa, carpet etc. I knew right away my waters had gone. Sat on the loo and the blood and clots started 5-10 mins later. Lots of blood and felt like huge clots - I later learned one of these was the sac as it was already gone when I reached hospital. I called my MW and got sent to the EPU immediately - I was there within 45mins of waters going. The blood loss was horrendous - we had no childcare for our 11 month old so DP had to drop me at hospital front door then Park and take DS to wait in the cafe as I didn't want him to be on the EPU. Trying to get from the hospital entrance to the EPU I was literally pouring with blood and clots, doubled in pain and leaving a trail of blood. I had loaded up with 5 night time always pads all at once before I set out but in the 20 mins from my house to the EPU I had soaked through them, my leggings, skirt and coat. A member of the public had to help me get to the EPU as I was a wreck.
The EPU staff were great but it was quite obvious to everyone that my baby was gone. I had to be rushed for an emergency ERPC as they were not able sure that everything was out and the excessive bleeding was a sign my body was trying to expel something. And now I'm in a gynae ward - awaiting seeing a consultant in the morning to find out if was ectopic or molar which they were concerned about.
I've been quite shocked by this whole experience - was shocked to be pregnant in the first place as DS was an IVF pregnancy - but I never expected a miscarriage to be such a very sudden and dramatic experience with such huge sudden loss. I'm so grateful that it started at home and not at work etc. Other than that not really done much thinking or talking to DP - he came for 15 mins tonight but I didn't want him to stay as he had had to drag our little boy out of bed. Am on hourly obs so don't expect to go to sleep tonight. Not sure why I'm posting really - suppose I just wanted to tell someone about what happened today. We hadn't told anyone about the pregnancy and don't plan to tell any family about the mc for various reasons (I'd prefer to avoid the inevitable drama) although I have a good friend I might confide in when I see her in a week or so from now. Physically I actually feel ok now - no pain and only bleeding like a normal period.
Feel awful saying this but I kind of feel relieved it's over - I felt so not pregnant that I've felt sure I'd had a mmc and would be told so at my scan, and it's been on my mind making me worry 24/7. Weird as it may sound, I feel a bit relieved that I'm no longer in limbo - knowing for definite feels better than worrying and wondering if that makes sense.
Sorry this is so long, and really hope it's not distressed anyone. If you got to the end of my post, thanks for reading......