Just writing this as a form of therapy I guess, also as a warning for women who experience excessive blood loss to get to hospital sooner rather than later.
I first noticed brown discharge sorry tmi on wiping, it was New Year's Eve, went to work as normal but while at work this increased. Called the early pregnancy unit and my gp, sadly I missed the window with the unit and couldn't be seen until the 2nd, was a horrendous experience miscarying slowly on the toilet New Year's Eve, especially wiping away my baby at midnight.
On the 2nd the ultrasound showed I was carrying identical twins, a super blow to the system, they then sent me home with no advise, only that I needed to come back a week later to see if one was still to survive, they had only measured 3mm or so at 11 weeks, they had stopped growing at 5 or 6 weeks. So the chance of that happening was zero!
I was told to call my gp if I started to haemorrhage. I left in a state of shock and sadness, I had felt all along I had twins.
The miscariage was very slow, I went back to work for two days, by the end of the second I had started to show a little bit of red on wiping,
That night it was still brown, the next day, a week after it all started I had some cramping then the bleeding started, it felt like I was letting go of lumps of jelly, then lots of blood, this came in waves and lasted about four hours, at the end I felt great and a massive sense of relief, it was over.
The next day at about midday I was suddenly bent over with pain and rushed to the toilet, I literally flooded the toilet with blood and soft clots, it just kept coming, I called my mum to watch my curious 2 year old, an hour later it was still coming, I started to feel very dizzy and thankfully had my phone to check the internet, thankfully mumsnet for similar experiences.
Called my partner to come home, called the hospital and they said to come straight in, my sister ended up taking me, I had soaked two maxi pads in the 20min journey , they thankfully took one look at me and took me to a side room, I passed out as they were hooking up a drip, I then spent the next day in hospital, loosing so much blood, passing out again (cervical shock) they removed part of the foetal sac while awake from my cervix, still bleeding heavily they finally gave me the operation, I cried until I was out, then woke up when it was over , no bleeding.
Lost so much blood over the three days I was given so many drips of fluid.
I'm now home with terrible tachycardia and can hardly turn over without feeling my heart will explode, I'm on iron tablets to get my hgb back up, it went from 11 to 7, they was going to give me a blood but thought I'd get my levels back with the fluids and iron tablets.
My partner has been amazing, he has totally stepped up to help, I still can't believe that slow natural miscariage turned into this, I'm sorry if this is shocking, but please don't delay getting to hospital if you fill a toilet with blood and tissue, keep an eye on yourself and how you feel, don't feel it will be ok and put it off, if it really is soaking a pads worth in an hour go!!!
I still feel in shock, petrified I would never see my daughter or partner or family, they never warn you about this and although it's rare to haemorrhage it's very distressing, and the recovery is harder than expected. If you have or are experienced in this please let me know how you are, it feels so awful, I've never been unwell and find this whole thing truely awful, I'm thankful the staff were amazing but shocked they didn't offer the op sooner, natural is the only way to them until it gets complicated.
If it wasn't for all the amazing posts on mumsnet I dread to think what would of happened.