I still cry, and see so clearly -

[oopsadaisyme]

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I've never talked properly about this - but I died over my miscarriage - I have two beautiful boys now, but i couldn't save that day, and it killed me -

Oh sorry to hear this oops you are having a tough time at the moment aren't you? When did it happen?

Three times now, recently one, and I have never spoken about it properly - all in the toilet, and I tried to pick up to save, I didn't know what I was doing -
It's all a nightmare

That sounds so awfully sad . No experience but am here to hold your hand and listen

thank you x

We are reading , you aren't alone . I'm sorry you are feeling so sad. This has been a hard time for you but you are surviving . Don't give up . You have your boys to get up for every day . Things will get better x

Have you talked to anyone in RL about this Oops? Do you want to talk about it now?

Not in RL, just got put on antidepressants - so not thought in a long time (apart from getting called a 'baby killer' from my ex, ) nice

Oh god lovely, you really are so well shot of him. You know you couldn't have saved them from the loo, don't you? They were already gone. How far along were you? Do you think it would be helpful to have some counselling about it?

counselling would have helped far more than blockers, I think -

If GP's offered counselling, it would have helped me immensely I think, but they couldn't of cared less -

I lost two angel babies to mmc's, the first 7 and a half years ago, and would have turned 7 on boxing day, and the second 4 and a half years ago and would be 5 on march 26th.

I haven't forgotten either of them and I wont, not now or ever, there is always a part of me that things what if.

I have been referred for grievance counselling, you could try phoning cruse bereavement, they may be able to help

Just know that you are not alone and what you are feeling is not wrong at all.

stupid xxx

I think I may have needed counselling before medication - thought for uncaring GP's out there

It's not too late Oops. Counselling could still really help you as this is obviously something that is troubling you. Agree Cruse or Sands would be good places to call, or ask at the GPs if there is a local service you can be referred or even self refer to. I had 12 free sessions of CBT through our local NHS service and it was so so helpful.

My Gp's are shocking, changing daily from one to another - I've been (8 months ago) where was told I needed support, and nothing from them, apart from a four weeks ago when new foreign doc wouldn't prescribe me any more pills without seeing him, forcing me into withdrawl,

That's pants. Do they have a website? If so have a look, pick a doc you've not seen before and book an appt with them. Are you off your ADs now? That doesn't sound like a good idea at the moment. I find making a list of what you are struggling with helps - gives you something to run through or just show them if you get teary.

It may be that you can self-refer to your local counselling service, doctors reception might be able to give you a contact number?

Must go to bed now - try to get some sleep and definitely make some phonecalls in the morning - you deserve some help.

Hi Oops, how are you now? Did you get in touch with anyone on Friday? Hope you are feeling ok.