Lost my baby today

[PaulaFletch14]

This was my first pregnancy, I'm 39 and it took a year to conceive. Me and my partner were so happy. Last week I had a scan and we saw baby's heartbeat. It was amazing. Today I had a scan and no heartbeat. I can't stop crying and we're heartbroken. Hospital tomorrow for medical management.

I'm funding it difficult as my partner has two daughters from his first marriage. I feel resentful that he has kids with someone else. Is this normal or am I a cow?

Feel alone, even though partner very supportive.

Also wanted to say when we started ttc after the mc I was really nervous and although luckily did get pregnant quite easily then did feel a lot more anxious throughout that pregnancy, particularly early on but to some degree all the way through. I think counselling is a great idea, I was lucky to find a good counsellor through my GP, sometimes you may need to speak to more than one to find someone you can feel at ease with.
Good luck, fingers crossed for you.

Sorry to hear your sad news, you aren't a cow my love.
Be kind to yourself, it was nobodies fault.

Thanks for for the link Parsley. It is horrible isn't it. Thank you for the link as I will continue to post as now I know physically I'm ok will TTC soon.

Your experience in EPU sounds similar to what happened to me and my DP when we left the hospital after my miscarriage we walked out the door facing heavily pregnant woman smoking. I felt like screaming at her.
Hope we all have healthy pregnancies next time x

Hi mouldypineapple
Thanks for your posts
I'm having some counselling through Occ health at work as I haven't been offered any during miscarriage

My DP is amazing and incredibly supportive. I couldn't get through without him

Best wishes x