Would have just been finding out the sex

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I had a mmc at 11 weeks and while I was very pragmatic about it all, had tears, sadness and took some time.off work. At the time, it was the horror of that actual.miscarriage that was on my mind, however the pain eased.

Yesterday I had a sidden realisation that, had it been successful, we would recently have discovered the sex. We didnt find out with DD, and it was something DH wanted to do this time around.

I had a name in mind for if it were a girl, and whilst we will never know, had strong girl vibes, even in those first few weeks. Im.worried now about how I may feel come the EDD.

Dont know what Im.posting for...maybe just to get it out there.

I expect you will feel sadness and that is ok, you should allow yourself that

Agree with LEM let yourself feel sad. Be kind to yourself and talk on here, in real life don't feel you have to bottle anything up x

Im.scared to bring it up.with DH as if he isnt feelibg sadness, then he will after I talk about it. Im out with a friend who knows all about it this afternoon so Ill have a chat with her.

After it happened, we both felt very strongly about not ttcing again. At the moment, I just want to be pregnant again right now. It is so so confusing. I think im too sad to make that big a decision at the moment.

Its just come from.nowhere.

Tomorrow was going to be our 12 week scan. Still going to the hospital but now the scan is to make sure all the 'products' are gone. Reaching these should-have-been milestones is absolutely galling isn't it?
So sorry for your loss Mafa