Anniversary

[NatashaGurdin]

I've never posted on this board before (and only post a little on others) but today I felt I needed to write down how I felt because for the first time since my miscarriage I think I feel ok. Early October is about when my baby should have been born but I miscarried at 8 weeks in February 2006.

It's been a long journey as although the pregnancy was unexpected, it was welcomed as I'd been told that pregnancy was unlikely (fibroids) and I realise now I nearly had a breakdown when I lost it. I stupidly refused to seek help for the way I was feeling though (I'm very stubbon) so when I had problems at work (to do with disability) in 2010, it all came back with a vengeance and led to me losing my job but today the sun was shining and I suddenly realised that I didn't feel low like I have been feeling as October approaches.

Hope this is the right place to share this.

Thank you for sharing this Natasha. As someone who has just had their first miscarriage it's heartening to know it does get better and that the dark clouds do lift. Sending love and sunshine for your anniversary xx

I'm sorry to hear you are going through this sad time Hessy. I just don't think we acknowledge this all too common but individual event and that really isn't healthy as it leads to us thinking that we are the only ones going through it even if logically we know we aren't.

Thank you for the love and sunshine, hope you feel it one day when you are ready.

While miscarriage is unfortunately very common that doesn't mean that it isn't dreadful when it happens to the people concerned. I've found mumsnet has really helped me and would have found this a tougher experience in the pre-mumsnet days irrespective of the rl support that I've had.

I'm sorry it's had such a long impact on you I'm glad the sun is now shining brighter for you.