Terrified of another mmc!

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Honey786 · 26/09/2013 10:14

Hi all,
Not been on here for a while, not since March/April when I had a mmc. It was the most devastating thing I've experienced. Yesterday was supposed to be due date which has been difficult to deal with, although its been easier knowing that I'm 10weeks now with my second pregnancy and I've been suffering with severe sickness so not had much time to think!
I've been on lots of medication lately, I'm worried that its affecting baby. The worst thing now is the fear of going to my dating scan and going through that again. Not sure I'd be able to handle it.
I know that I should be happy and grateful but I can't help feeling like this. I'm just so scared and have been since I got the date for the dating scan. Am I crazy for thinking that I should mentally prepare myself for the worst?

So sorry for going on with myself, just needed to get it out of my system!

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Bakingtins · 26/09/2013 10:26

Hi Honey it sounds like you are having an emotionally tough time at the moment. Hope yesterday passed peacefully. I think your innocence that a BFP = a baby is destroyed by a miscarriage and it's impossible to get that back. It's not surprising that you are worked up about the scan, in fact I'm amazed you've managed to last this long without one. I hope you have a brilliant scan and all your fears are laid to rest, then hopefully you can start to enjoy the pregnancy and look forward to your LO arriving. Come back and let us know?

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Honey786 · 26/09/2013 10:54

Thank u Bakingtins for ur response and kind words xx
I have been for a scan at 7+4 weeks because I'd had some spotting. The scan was fine and we saw a little flicker for a heartbeat. Last time I'd mc at 9 weeks and discovered this at my dating scan so I'm frightened of it happening again. I saw my midwife on Tuesday who said that even though I've had a mc, I'm still low risk.
You are right about it being impossible to get it back, with my last BFP I felt like I was walking on clouds in my own little world and nobody could touch me. This time I've not let myself think too much but weirdly I've not had to try too hard to block my thoughts. It's as if my brain is doing it for me.

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Bezza2508 · 26/09/2013 13:01

Hi honey. I can imagine how you're feeling. I went though the same thing with a MMC discovered at 12 week scan and know how awful it is. I'm not pregnant again yet but can imagine I will feel just how you feel if I do get pregnant. There's nothing I can really say to ease the worry but I just wanted to let you know I understand and that I really hope everything goes well for you this time. Come back and let us know xx

Rockchick1984 · 26/09/2013 15:43

Hi Honey I experienced similar - had a scan at 8 weeks which was perfect, heartbeat etc, then had 12 week scan and baby had died shortly after the previous scan.

I'm now 17 weeks with my pregnancy (fell pregnant again quickly after the ERPC) and although it's been terrifying, I'm finally starting to relax a little bit. I sobbed before my 12 week scan - it brought all the memories of it back, I was so scared that things could have gone wrong again.

This baby seems fine, had a gender scan and I'm expecting a little girl, so although I'm not going to tell you not to worry as I know I'd be wasting my time, I just wanted to say that it won't necessarily happen again, statistically you're likely to have no problems this time. Congratulations on your pregnancy :)

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