Early mc yesterday. Feelings all over the place.

[BigFatCushion]

Have 2 healthy dcs. 6&4. New husband. Decided to try for a 3rd. It would be his first.

I was so blasé. Got pg straight away... Bleeding yesterday, and well you know the rest.

Thing is I almost feel like a bullet has been dodged. Is that crazy? Life is so brilliant, and I adore him and my children. I don't know if I can go through it all again, and the associated risks.

It's like last night I thought of all the things we could do without a pg or 3rd child. There's loads. Especially since I got rid of all equipment from the first 2 so finances would take a squeeze.

We sleep, have lie ins, lovely holidays and trips away whilst the dc are with their dad.

I know I sound selfish and am now rambling. I was gutted but maybe not as much as I could have been iykwim?

I do know how you feel.

Although I don't bfeel like this following the miscarriage, I did feel like it on finding out u was pregnant. Even though technically I wanted another!
I too was thinking how holidays had got easier, no more baby stuff to lug around and life was generally nice.

However since the miscarriage im the opposite and thinking pregnancy and babyhood are such short periods in our life and they soon pass. We can still have that lovely easy life but at s later date.

Its our hormones I think isnt it.

Finding out I was pregnant not you!
Bloody phone

Thanks. I was worried I'd come back from the school run to find everyone had flamed me for being so insensitive.

I feel more sorry for my DH. It was his turn to be a Dad.