i miss my sweet girl..

[angelsmommy110411]

20 months ago I had a stillborn. Her name was Angel Marie. She was so beautiful and I miss her So much. There are days when I feel like just laying in bed and crying. I have 4 other children who need me but I just don't have the energy to do the things I want with them. I know I have to be strong for them and "move on" but its hard. I feel like I'm the only one who keeps her alive. Although my husband is supportive he doesn't show emotion when it comes to Angel. How do I overcome this. How do I move on from the sadness. How do I let go of the anger.

Hi

That's so sad and I'm so sorry for your loss. You are bound to be more attached as you shared your body with her for so long and were the closest person to her.

I'm sorry. Have no words of advice but sounds like you'd benefit from talking to someone in RL about this-have you been in touch with any of the stillbirth foundations/charities?

I'm sure someone wise will be along shortly with proper advice but. Please be gentle with yourself x

I'm so sorry, Angelsmommy I don't think you ever do get over a loss like that, just learn to live with it. It does sounds like you have become a bit stuck somewhere in the grieving process and perhaps it would help to get some counselling. I'm sure you are already aware of SANDS but I would think they could point you in the direction of someone local with experience of bereavement counselling for stillbirth.

Hi Angel,
I am so sorry for your loss. There is nothing really I or anyone can say other than I know how much you love her and she will always be your beautiful, special little girl.
I know it's not the same situation I but eventually went to CRUSE bereavement counseling after my mum died (she took her own life so it was very sudden and very difficult) I'm not big into talking about things but I did find this helped. Also as Bakingtins suggested SANDS. They are also online and have a helpline (I tried them recently, I didn't get through but didn't try for long)
You are still grieving, it is important to recognise this. I'm sure your husband is hurting too, he may find it hard to show it or wants to be strong for you. Please please don't be afraid to ask for help, even if it's asking someone to watch your other children for a day or two while you have some time to yourself. xxx