My miscarriage experience & coping with the pain

[Kandi123]

I recently had a miscarriage almost 2wks ago now. I was only 6 wks pregnant, but it still bothered me. It was not a planned pregnancy, but my boyfriend and I have been together for 5yrs so we were very excited. It was one of the worst experiences of my life. It was emotionally draining and very painful. I started having cramps at night and bleeding. By the next morning I was we'll into the MC. I begin passing blood clots and was taken to the hospital. I was taken to the hospital twice... Initially when I had the miscarriage and a couple days later after having contractions. I've never given birth before and have never experience such pain. My worst cramps have never felt as bad as what I was feeling. I was out when the contractions started. I could barely walk. All I remember is trying to find somewhere to sit and being in so much pain crying my eyes out. Anyway now after having the miscarriage I am experiencing all types of emotions that I cannot explain. Sometimes I'm sad, then other times that sadness turns into anger. It's hard to explain how I'm feeling to my boyfriend because I barely understand them myself. I put on a smile when I'm in public and pretend like nothing's bothering me, but sometimes when I'm alone I can't stop crying. Does this feeling ever go away?

Yes, the emotions do calm down. You will always remember the painful times but time should make things more manageable (and make sure you give yourself time to recover). You may find on line people for whom the pain has stayed raw - indeed people who behave as if going through the mourning process and eventually feeling calmer makes you disloyal.
That is not healthy. You have been bereaved and suffered a severe medical trauma at the same time: this cannot be undone, but the mood swings and extreme anguish will fade over months.
If you find talking to someone helps, this miscarriage association www.miscarriageassociation.org.uk has a fantastic helpline, can recommend counsellors and has a really supportive forum. They got me through 3 MCs and I cannot rate them highly enough.

Im so sorry you are going through this

It does go away or at least ease. 2 weeks is a very short period of time and it must all still be very raw, plus your hormones will still be all over the place. You need to allow yourself to work through a process of grieving for your loss, and you will in time find some peace about it. If you feel you are getting stuck at one stage or if you can't find an outlet for your feelings then there are counsellors who specialise in miscarriage, but often just "talking" to others who have been through similar really helps, so keep posting.

At the time of my mc I was told that it would get easier after the birth date - and it did. That's a long time for you but at least that day will come. On the birth date I still feel sad and I have a son born since which helps. It is awful and the fact that no-one (around me anyway) talks about it makes it harder but you are not alone and your feelings (going by these forums) are perfectly normal.