Where to start? Husband and I had an amnio test today after our downs screening came back last week as 1/20. We went to the appointment (originally they thought I was 15 weeks due to scan size) After a few minutes of doing the ultrasound the consultant broke the news that there is something very wrong with the baby.
There is too much fluid around the brain/skull, bowel and ribs and it is pretty much certain it will not survive. There is a heartbeat at the moment.
He took the fluid and we will get the results Tuesday afternoon. It may be Downs, a virus, congenital or possibly just a one off.
I feel pretty numb but otherwise normal. Crying occasionally. We have already decided we will terminate, we can be together and it sort of feels like it is in our control. Sorry if the post seems disjointed, I think I just need to talk about it. It's going to be such a long weekend, trying to do normal bits but it just feels so weird. This is our first baby, I'm really scared that we may not be able to have more or it is something that will keep happening.