Cruel and unusual punishment aka limbo land.

[Bakingtins]

I had a scan last week at 7+4 that showed fetal pole but no hb. There is no doubt about dates, I was scanned mid-cycle as I was about to ovulate as part of RMC investigations. However, policy states you need 2 scans a week apart so sent to EPU today. Scan shows a 6 week embryo with a very slow HB (now should be 8+4) which everyone agrees is a failing pregnancy, but because there is a hb, albeit weak, I have to wait another week.
I'm on progesterone which is probably propping up a failing pregnancy, but I don't want to stop it and MC naturally or I lose the chance to have genetic tests. This will be MC no4.
Even though I know there is no way my dates could be that far out they have reintroduced that tiny flicker of hope which means I wil be devastated again when there is no HB at a rescan. Just when you think things couldn't be any more shit, they are.
This is what my first MC was like and I'm sure the emotional rollercoaster of weeks of scans 6-10wks pregnant and being told "it's all ok, ..oh no it's not" adversely affected my mental health and my ability to get over it. MC 2 and 3 I had no scans until I had started to bleed heavily and it was obvious it was all over, and never saw that little flicker of a HB.
I know they are just following their policies, and I know they can't do anything whilst there is a HB there unless of course I just didn't want to be pregnant when they would happily give me an abortion but it is just beyond awful to be stuck in this limbo.

This is very similar to mine a couple of months ago. The fact you can't set your mind in one way or another to cope is just crippling, the worst waiting ever. But, you're right, there's nothing you can do. I was told no reason to be so pessimistic but personally i thought it best to be prepared and I am glad i did. It's just crap, I hope you get through it.

Oh baking, big hugs to you, you poor thing. I can't imagine the agony of being left in limbo like that. Remember that you will get through this, no matter how hard. Praying for you, xx

It's awful, you poor thing. The only thing to do is wait, as you know, and it's such a horrible time. I've had 4 mcs and only one was like that. I felt in a way it helped me prepare, rather than my 'worst' mc when I'd got to 13 weeks before it very painfully went wrong, but it was still the most horrible wait. For my successful pregnancy I waited until 7 weeks for first scan and luckily it was ok, but I realise you are meant to be st that stage too. Nothing to offer I guess except virtual hand holding and the assurance that this will pass, although of course miscarriage is something you never forget. Are you having any recurrent mc treatment? I was treated for high natural killer cells.

Sorry I just re read and saw you are being treated for recurrent mc. If it helps at all I did have one mc on treatment.

I really feel for you Bakingtins, I was in the exact same situation as you in the last 2 weeks. Was 8 weeks when had a scan but measured 5 weeks, slow heartbeat. Knew I was 100% 8 weeks. Had to wait a week for a repeat scan, showed 5 weeks no heartbeat. Luckily my hospital arranged me an ERPC next day so I didn't wait it out.

I'm glad they made me wait in a way, but also agree to the while limbo land hell :-( thinking of you Hun, hope thing do work out well, no matter how hopeless it seems xx