Feeling lost

[MrsExcited]

Hi,

I'm writing this here as it gives me a place to talk where it is unlikely i will upset anyone or hurt or anything else that talking about miscarriage seems to bring.

I had some very light but bright red spotting last Wednesday, came from work (teacher) and rang Midwife who at 9+3 got me an appointment on the Friday for an early scan, This scan showed a bundle of cells measuring 5.9 weeks and an amniotic sac,having got the BFP on 1/2/13 I am positive om my dates LMP was 6/1/13. Was signed off work for this week, then next is the Easter holidays.

I have to go back this Friday to make sure that no more growth has occurred then my preference is for an ERPC (in fact i am terrified i will miscarry before they can surgically remove)

My plan at the moment is to try again as soon as all clear is given, but am worried this is the wrong thing to do

Is there anything that will make me want to get out bed again or feel like i am alive not just a shadow - I think the being able to wallow is almost making me feel worse atm.

None of my friends have been through this, in fact very few have children!

Need to change my name! Mrssad sounds appropriate right now!

Hi Mrs we shared a LMP and presumably a due date. I miscarried for the third time 2 weeks ago at 8 weeks pregnant. I'm sorry you are left in limbo waiting for another scan, it's just the worst feeling. You will get through it, and for most people TTC again is a big part of moving on, something positive to focus on, a chance to right the wrong. Wallowing is allowed though, it's a horrible thing to go through.
Hope Friday brings clarity and you are facilitated in getting an ERPC quickly if that's your preference.
You will get to the stage where your name is appropriate again. Promise.

Hi Mrs, this could have been my story 4 weeks ago. I'm a teacher too & I opted for an ERPC as I dreaded starting to miscarry in front of a class. I found out I lost my baby at 11 weeks (baby had stopped growing at around 6 wks) over half term, had my ERPC a (very long) week after & then had a subsequent 10 days off work - went back last Monday. I found the first week I was in shock but positive (think I was so focused on ERPC & thought it would "all be over"), week after op I was so depressed mixture of realisation, hormonal crash & finding a friend is due with twins 10 days after my EDD!!). What got (& is getting me) through is MN & the support. I was directed to the Miscarriage Association page & I planted a forget-me-not for our little bump, I bought a flowerpot so I can grow an orchid & I just kept posting, posting, posting! I still have sad days. Yesterday I had stomach cramps (caught sickness bug off DD!) but it reminded me of ERPC & I just sobbed (was in bloody briefing!). Luckily my dep is fab & rallied round with hankies, nurofen & hot water bottles! It's a hard time & you will get through it, just keep talking & I hope you hav e lots of people IRL who'll be there for you. Keep us posted how you get on.

Mrs
I'm so sorry for your loss.
It's a horrible situation to be in, I've just been through similar myself.
It's a miserable time and I can understand why you would worry about TTC again, but you do what feels right for you when the immediate shock of this situation has passed.
I wish you all the very best for the future

Thank you to those who have posted, I have got up today with a feeling of more determination, I am still not looking forward to Friday or the OP but i can see some light at the end of the tunnel.

Right now i think TTC again as soon as possible is the right thing for us.

Thanks for your support