Hi - I am currently 5 weeks 6 days pregnant (or was??). I had some abdominal pains last Sunday night and went to A&E where I had blood tests done and was booked in for a EPU scan. I had the scan last Tue, ultrasound and vaginal, and could see the sac and foetus but no heartbeat as it is too early in the pregnancy (I thought I was 7 weeks but was told on Tuesday I was 5 weeks+2).
I went to back to A&E last Thursday as I have been bleeding since the scan (I always bleed after smears so thought it may be due to this) - started off as barely any blood on wiping to heavier although still nothing like a period and only one clot to date. This has since turned to a brown discharge (stringy) - apologies for TMI. I had further blood tests on Thursday night and was told my HCG levels have barely increased so was basically told I am miscarrying. Since this time I have continued to bleed (on wiping - sometimes red but mainly brown stringy discharge still). I had more blood tests this morning and again my HCG levels have hardly increased let alone doubled (early 4000's Thurs and late 4000's this morning). I have subsequently been told it is a 'failed pregnancy' but need to go back this Monday morning for further blood tests. I wad given no advice on when I may miscarry etc and was told it could take up to 2-weeks to pass the 'baby' naturally and for my hormone levels to start to decrease again and only then would they consider surgery to remove what's left.
I know this is a job they do every day and see millions of cases but I really feel so unsupported. I have little support around me - partner is useless (I was ending the relationship when I discovered I was pregnant and I was over the moon and cant believe how much I love the little 'bean' in the week I have known about his/her existence; especially after seeing it on the scan screen).
I cant bear the thought of having to wait around to pass the baby; especially after reading how painful it can be. I can not take any time off work, and working as a Social Worker with many new-born babies, I am absolutely terrified it will happen at work. I have told my Manager about the situation as I was due to go on Pre-Birth training this Monday and cant face the idea, so have said I will not be in as I have blood tests anyway first thing that day :-(
I am 36 and never been pregnant before so all of this is new to me. I didn't think I could have children after getting raped aged 19 and being left in a bit of a mess internally and having lots of Gynae problems over the years. It was a miracle and although it was not planned and I was shocked, I feel that little bean saved my life!
I wondered if anyone has been through similar or has any advice for me.
many thanks