i am so lonely

[acsr1987]

god i feel like shit today just over 2 months since mmc and i am still not over it, i feel so lonely and fucking awful its taking alot to keep myself together today. i think now that xmas is out of the way its like well what now???
i got a nice reminder today that my pregnant cousin who was about 3/4 weeks ahead of me is doing great and cant wait for the baby to be here..... how about you go fuck yourself i dont care
god i feel so shit

Yep it sucks doesn't it. I'm at the end of a miscarriage and feeling pretty angry too sometimes. I have a friend who started ttc at the same time as us (I know as she said she conceived first month of trying) whose baby is due next month, seems so unfair although I feel really guilty for feeling angry about it. I'm going to try and focus myself on getting fit and healthy and sorting the house out a bit. Please be kind to yourself, do you have any friends who know who you can confide in? Wishing you lots of luck for next time.

Sorry you are having a bad day. There's no reason you should be "over it" a few months down the line. I'm 4 months on and finding it hard at the moment, I had hoped to be pregnant again by now but no such luck. New Year is a time to make plans for the future and that's hard when your immediate future is not what you had hoped for.

I just feel shit I'm supposed to be going back to work soon but just can't face it yet

hi acr - this is a crappy time of year when things are not going well. It could be one of those times when work might take your mind of things? but if you are really dreading it have you considered seeing a counsellor? Maybe ask your GP for a referral as although it's normal to feel sad it shouldn't be stopping you doing normal things.