Please...give me some hope?

[BoyMeetsWorld]

If I'm honest, I know there's very little hope. This pregnancy hasn't felt 'right' from the start, I've had cramps and backache all along, then a random bleed a few days ago (not overly heavy - wouldn't soak a pad - but still definitely noticeable). Hospital kept me in for suspected ectopic & scan showed not ectopic but sac was very small & no heartbeat - there was a yolk though. Now going back in 2 weeks for scan to see one way or another. My boobs have 'deflated' & stopped hurting, home dip test test line fainter than control line.

I'm driving myself insane reading MC stories & symptoms, am sat here crying my eyes out having read the MC poems thread. & somehow I feel I've given up already and feel this LO isn't there.

But surely there has to be some hope??? It's not confirmed yet. I've only had the one small(ish) bleed. I'm almost certain iv not got my dates wrong but some sites do say you don't always see a heartbeat at 6 weeks. & the hospital didn't say I HAD to have a scan in 2 weeks they said it was up to me or I could wait until 12, and they'd seen my blood results (they didn't tell me what those were). & the lines are both def there on the HPT, even if one is fainter.

I know I'm being stupid, just desperately need to keep hoping & these next two weeks till the scan are hell.

Hugs to anyone else going through this

[GuppieK]

Bless you. The waiting is so so awful. I think we've all done the Internet trawling thing but you'll find so many conflicting experiences. There's just no way of predicting which way it will go. In two weeks everything might be normal. Or, and I keep my fingers crossed this wont happen to you, you might start to miscarry. I 'knew' with my most recent one as my mood suddenly plummeted and a recognised the feeling which I guess is hormone levels dropping. 24 hrs later I started to bleed. But that was just me and someone else might have experienced the same but turned out to be wrong...

Just take care of yourself. Try your hardest to take your mind off it and be with people. Have time off work if you need to and I hope things work out. It will be the longest 2 weeks of your life and it's horrible to have to go through. But however it goes, remember there is a lot of reason to be hopeful even though things feel desperately sad at the moment.

Keep us updated. Even though I don't recommend reading about countless experiences, symptoms and outcomes online I do think this forum is great for support and information. Take care of yourself. x

[stmalo]

aww, boymeetsworld, it's not a great time, but you have keep a bit of positivity there, no one has said it is a miscarriage yet, and as I keep reading..
some women do bleed throughout their pregnancies and still have healthy babies. I would say the same as guppie I knew I wasn't right the day before I miscarried, I was very down and teary and my chest had stopped feeling sore and I had said to my husband that I didn't feel right.
You are NOT being stupid!! It's an incredibly stressful and emotional time, and your hormones are waging war on you! As has already been said, take time off if your think you'd be better at home, or launch yourself into christmas if you need to take your mind of it!
I wish you all the best of luck ... xxx

[stmalo]

p.s. - I've had two miscarriages and I definately can't read the miscarriage poems!

[RileyTheLittleMonster]

Hello, im going through the same found outtoday my baby measured 6 weeks with no heartbeat got to wait until Christmas eve for next scan! I'm 5+5.

It's not easy, you've just got to stay strong and hope the Babys heart hasn't pushed firward yet or they measured baby abit bigger than it is. Make sure you keep us updated and i hope baby holds in there. X