New - so it happened again

[Justadreamer]

Hi all,

I suppose the best place to start is the reason I've come. I lost my 5th baby today. I have pcos and it was our first round of Clomid and we were so lucky we caught, but today at nearly 6weeks I began to bleed and dr's confirmed another miscarriage.

I'm heartbroken and not sure how many more of these I can go through. I feel so angry with everything right now and I can't stop blaming myself. I feel I've left my husband down so much, I feel like I keep putting him through this pain over and over again. My specialist said to try another round of Clomid in a few months but I don't feel mentally strong enough to possibly go through all this again.

How am I supposed to just carry on? I feel so guilty like a failure. I feel like I'm not a proper woman because I can't do the one thing every other woman around me seems to do with ease?!?! I just want to crawl under my duvet and never come out. I've cried so much today I don't think I physically have any tears left. I feel so empty :(

Oh Sweetheart . I can not help at all but want you to know that somewhere in the dark night someone is thinking of you . I am so sorry for for pain .

Be very gentle with yourself. Take all the time you need to cry, rest, and heal. I shall be thinking about you.

Sorry to read this.
Making babies is so amazing, a feat of nature. I'm astonished that most of us don't have lots of problems. Please don't knock yourself.

Thanks ladies, I'm feeling better today. Husband is very doting and tentative today which is nice I even had tea and toast in bed

The sad fact is I've had so many now I think there becoming the norm

I'm really sorry for your loss, I've had 2 mc between 6-8 weeks and 1 at 20 weeks. I dont think there are words to describe how painful reaccuring mc is.

Glad your dh is looking after you. We have some very supportive threads in conception for those of us who have suffered miscarriages that I can link you too if you would like for the future x