Having a moan :(

[wifey6]

Suffered a MMC in April..we should of been 12+ weeks.
I have struggled with this loss since & to top it off my sister is due 4 days after I would of been :(
My cycles have been late each month so never know when I OV so TTC is now starting to upset me & I feel like giving up.
My DS is wonderful & helps me through the sadness..as has my DH.
Tonight I added some beautiful butterfly lights to my baby's special garden tonight & I completely fell apart...I should be buying baby stuff for my hospital bag..not these for my baby's resting place. :(
I know others are going through much worse..& I apologise & sympathise..I guess I have no RL support so really needed to off-load.
Sorry for the self-pitying thread x

Thanks Iggi for your kind & positive words! I'm due some good luck; I've got a crappy obstetric history & just keep hoping that things must go right at some point - by a law of averages. For all of us hopefully x

Good grief Wifey you didn't say anything wrong? Was a very sad time for me but as I'm now holding my ds it was all worth it in the end.
But remember you are not likely to have any more bad luck than you've already had (both of you).

Feeling too consumed by all the ttc stuff...decided that when AF arrives on Sat/Sun I'm having a break for a while. It's making me so down & p*ed off that I can't do it any longer. DH doesn't think we've been trying 'seriously' anyway...as I dont tell him when the best times are etc. ignorance is bliss isn't it for them!
Each month I get 'phantom' symptoms & convince myself that this month..just might be it..that we will be lucky this time. Then AF arrives & I feel sick.
I know people try for years..& I admire their strength..determination now more than ever. I guess I just want to step away from my life for a while..the grief & the ttc.
Wishing you all luck x x